Happy new year, all! I thought I might give an update on my personal journey. I’ve been making really good progress, I’m up to 5 fingers. I wouldn’t say I’m fisting, but my thumb can definitely slip in now! Eep!
But more exciting: I finally had honest to goodness penis-in-butt anal sex! It happened when I was home for Thanksgiving, my partner and I finally got a night alone in his parent’s basement.
I was super proud of myself, after all the training I’ve done, the actual night I wasn’t even that nervous. We did our normal stuff, lots of foreplay, and I was already super turned on. I told him I was ready, and we used so. much. lube. We should have bought stock in KY! He went so, so slow. Like, glacially slow. And I worked really hard to breathe and relax instead of tensing up. That was important, since I don’t have as much control over the speed of his dick as I do with my own hand.
The initial entry was still intense. It was different from my toys, like a totally different universe. My plug is just static. But he was warm and alive, you know? And he’s got this… perfect firm-but-soft thing going on that the toys just don’t have. It made the whole thing feel less like an “insertion” and more like he was just fitting into a space that was ready and meant for him. I don’t know how to describe it.
As he pressed himself into me, the stretch got really intense and I had this like… endorphin rush or something. Like this feeling of euphoria and I got light headed… but in a good way.
Once he was all the way in, we just stayed still for a second, and it hit me. It was this deep, full pressure that felt amazing. He started rubbing my clit, and every slow movement sent these insane waves of pleasure through me. With my toys, it was just about the stretch, the feeling of being full. Well, maybe that and a bit of naughtiness. But with him moving, it was like he was hitting this one spot, way deep inside, that just sent this zingy, electric pleasure straight up my spine. It wasn’t a sharp feeling, it was this deep, rolling wave of “oh my god, don’t stop.” It was so intense and so much more intimate than I ever thought it could be. Like, I was trusting him with a part of my body I’d worked so hard on preparing, and he was being so gentle and attentive.
Honestly, it was one of the best sexual experiences I’ve ever had. I really feel like it’s taken our relationship to the next level. Best decision ever, 11/10.
Over the recent holiday break, we were able to do it twice more, at his parent’s place again and at a house party for NYE last night. Three times the charm, I think I can confidently say that I’m fully in an anal relationship now. I get butterflies just thinking about it! I’m so bummed to have to head back to school next week, back to FaceTimes and plugs only.
Anyways, thanks for letting me share!